Friendship

A Throw back....The first time I ever put words together lol i was like 12 so enjoys...

"When I asked G-d for a flower, He gave me a garden. When I asked Him for a tree, He gave me a forrest.     When I asked Him for a river, He gave me an ocean.   And when I asked Him for a friend, He gave me you!"

I trusted you, I put my Life in your hands. I thought I could count on you to be there always. I told you my life, my worries my sorows and a whole lot more, thinking you could help. Thinking you would always be there for me, that you were one of a kind, a very rare, well what they a call a true friend. I'd like to deny the feeling that you only befriended me because you felt sorry for me. I'd raher not think for the worst; but I just can't help asking why?       Why I ran to you? Why did you want to help? Why certain days you seemed not to care? Why those days I needed you most it seemed like you didn't want to be there, as if you didn't care. Why when i truly needed your support you decided to cut me short? Why? Well you're not to blame, I blame myself. Sometimes it was just my fault. I have to understand you just had other plans, other sh*t to do. I wouldn't feel upset, I understood, because no matter what; when I was feeling down or blue and I was too afraid to go and talk to you. You with out even knowing it, knew just to do. The simplest "Hello" that came from you, would be enough to make my day, as long as it came from you. Why do you mean so much to me, I haven't the slightest clue. Will I ever let you know?  Why am I still so afraid to talk to you? To let you in and help you understand who I really am.I felt I could trust you, I thought I new you well enough to tell you anything. It's those days that made me think "Is she mad at me?" "Is she tired of hearing me?" But than again who am I to say? Who am I to assume what you may be thinking? Regardless, always know that no matter what; I will ALWAYS look up to you in admiration, because you were the nicest thing that had ever happen to me. I hope that someday I will get to tell it all. That one day I can tell a story, my story, a story of fears, joys, sorrows, and pains. A story of life. m life, a life that goes beyond love, hopes, dreams, and tears, a story of truth. The day approches it's almost near, I ask myself will I have anything to fear? The only thing left to fear is is that this sad day is almost here. I ask you again is this real? Can our friendship truly be so dear? I hope this friendship is truly sincere. Please don't let it drift apart, let our friendship soar and stay within our hearts. With my last words I say 'Forget me not' because you, I will treasure more than life itself. I'll hold you close because to me you are something so precious and dear, something that cannot be replaced. It's hard to explain, but to see your face is knowing how true friendship feels. It's knowing you're protected and safe. However to leave you brings immense pain and fear, as if there would be no hope, that I will near the end of time without you, hopeless and alone. Know this you are my true friend and the love I feel for (you) our friendship is larger than anything you could ever imagine! A bond so so unique, I ask myself "Can our friendship truly be this strong?" Again, what is to happen when that dreadful day is here? I ask you again, will you forget me? are you really a true friend? Do you care for me the way I do for you? Does our friendship truly mean anything toyou? With words unspoken and questions unanswered, I have nothing more to say, nothing left to speak. As dawn is at its peak, I await the day when I can have the courage to to ask "Are you my friend?" a simple question, thats, answer can change my life forever. You choose how you will affect my life, all i can do now is sit and wait...Until then I await in the shadows of my thoughts, hoping that when the time is perfect an I am ready you will be there waiting with open arms. Let our friendship last, let this not be the truth of my fears, my drownning in mne tears, but the long lasting memories and thoughts of a true friendship that will last for years and years to come!